“He reveals the deep things of darkness and brings utter darkness into the light.” Job 12:22

Gratitude Journal - APril 10, 2021 Today, I am grateful that every once in a while, someone enjoys my writing. I like to write and really don’t do any of my journaling for anyone but myself, but I feel a certain sense of pride when someone else finds what I write worth reading. It makes the process just a little bit better. For this, I am grateful.

Mindfulness Journal - April 9, 2021 - Day 11 of 365 Today was a good day. I had a medical procedure (a spinal injection for low-back pain) and found myself a bit anxious. I used my breathing focus to find calm and let my anxiety pass. A great application of mindfulness that helped me a lot.

“We love because he first loved us” 1 John 4:19

Gratitude Journal - April 9, 2021 Today, I am grateful for the talented doctor and staff that took care of my back procedure today. I am hopeful that this will reduce my lower back pain. For this, I am grateful.

Mindfulness Journal - April 8, 2021 - Day 10 of 365 Today’s meditation focused on working to gain an understanding of what types of thoughts cause you the most distraction. What are the ideas that you find the most difficult to let go of? Typically I find that the most challenging thoughts for me are all the things I have yet to accomplish. I get caught up thinking about the next thing I need to do and what I need to do after that. I’ve lost all focus before I know it, and my mind is halfway down the street. I’m hopeful that a better understanding of where I lose focus and what I find challenging to recover from will improve my overall mindfulness.

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.” Galatians 5:22-23

Gratitude Journal - April 8, 2021 Today, I am grateful for the American Red Cross and blood donation. Many years ago I needed blood and it was there to help save my life. So today, and each opportunity I have, I give blood. I am forever grateful for the service that American Red Cross provides. For this, I am grateful.

Mindfulness Journal - April 7, 2021 - Day 9 of 365 Stuggling to find consistency in my morning routine. Today was disrupted by some overnight work requirements and lack of proper sleep. While I was able to get my meditation in it felt rushed and not very helpful. Morning is key.

“For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 6:23

Gratitude Journal - April 7, 2021 Today, I am grateful for televised professional baseball. While many of us cannot get out to the ballpark to watch a game in person, being able to watch an afternoon game on TV brings back a certain sense of normalcy. We all need a little normalcy. For this, I am grateful.

Mindfulness Journal - April 6, 2021 - Day 8 of 365 I had a very good meditation session today, though it was mid-day rather than early this morning. I’m finding that I am getting better at not only letting go of thoughts as I’m meditating, but also better at refocusing once my mind wanders off. The time goes by so fast. I am enjoying this process.

“No one lights a lamp and puts it in a place where it will be hidden, or under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, so that those who come in may see the light.” Luke 11:33

Gratitude Journal - April 6, 2021 Today, I am grateful for the feeling of disappointment. Being disappointed in an outcome helps me recognize that I need to continue to work hard for the things I want in life. If I am focused and driven in the things I do, I will be more successful and suffer disappointment less frequently. The activation and drive that disappointment brings help carry me forward to my next achievement. For this, I am grateful.

Mindfulness Journal - April 5, 2021 - Day 7 of 365 Today’s meditation was an exercise focusing on my mood or the emotional quality of my mind. The truth is that often we are not aware of how we feel because we are so busy doing things or thinking about various things. We miss identifying the very emotions we are feeling because of the busyness of our minds.

I think I often intentionally miss the emotions I am feeling intentionally. If I don’t acknowledge that I’m angry, I don’t have to deal with the anger. During this short meditation, I realized that I am mad a lot of the time, and I rarely deal with that anger. Anger comes at me in waves, and I usually try to ignore it or push it aside or carry on as best I can - but I never deal with it. I’m not sure how to “fix” this problem or if I can, but I hope that identifying it will help me better deal with it more readily.

“You shall have no other gods before me.

You shall not make for yourself an image in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the parents to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, but showing love to a thousand generations of those who love me and keep my commandments.

You shall not misuse the name of the Lord your God, for the Lord will not hold anyone guiltless who misuses his name.

Observe the Sabbath day by keeping it holy, as the Lord your God has commanded you. Six days you shall labor and do all your work, but the seventh day is a sabbath to the Lord your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your male or female servant, nor your ox, your donkey or any of your animals, nor any foreigner residing in your towns, so that your male and female servants may rest, as you do. Remember that you were slaves in Egypt and that the Lord your God brought you out of there with a mighty hand and an outstretched arm. Therefore the Lord your God has commanded you to observe the Sabbath day.

Honor your father and your mother, as the Lord your God has commanded you, so that you may live long and that it may go well with you in the land the Lord your God is giving you.

You shall not murder.

You shall not commit adultery.

You shall not steal.

You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor.

You shall not covet your neighbor’s wife. You shall not set your desire on your neighbor’s house or land, his male or female servant, his ox or donkey, or anything that belongs to your neighbor.” Deuteronomy 5:7-21

Gratitude Journal - April 5, 2021 Today, I am grateful for my professional accomplishments. I’ve been fortunate to build a solid career with a company of which I am very proud. I have accomplished much, and I still have a lot more ahead of me with any luck. Many of my peers have spent their careers moving from employer to employer, trying to gain a step up. Meanwhile, I have forged a rewarding career with a solid company for almost 20 years. For this, I am grateful.

Mindfulness Journal - April 4, 2021 - Day 6 of 365 Today was Easter and a busy day. Finding time to slip in meditation was not easy with family coming over for brunch and a lot of activity. I failed to get up early and get it done before the house woke up on top of everything. So, I was stuck doing this evening in a very active home with a lot going on. All of this left me with a sub-par meditation, but I still found some calm and a resolve to get back after it in a better fashion tomorrow.

“The angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay. Then go quickly and tell his disciples: ‘He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.’ Now I have told you.”” Matthew 28:5-7

Gratitude Journal - April 4, 2021 Today, I am grateful that God sent his son Jesus to die for all our sins on the cross. This sacrifice give all who believe in him eternal life. For this, I am grateful.